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The ways open to her for finance, for action, were completely doorless. The avenue stretched out to the horizon. She fought bravely but she just didn't take action. She was an actress for the theatre alone. And she died of it. And she let Bolivar die because of it. Never once did Manuela look about and say, "See here, things musn't go this wrong. My lover holds half a continent and even I hold the loyalty of battalions. Yet that woman threw a fish!" Never did Manuela tell Bolivar's doctor, a rumoured lover, "Tell that man he will not live without my becoming a constant part of his entourage, and tell him until he believes it or we'll have a new physician around here." The world was open. Where Theodosius, the wife of Emperor Justinian II of Constantinople, a mere circus girl and a whore, ruled harder than her husband but for her husband behind his back-and made him marry her as well, Manuela never had any bushel basket of gold brought in to give Bolivar for his unpaid troops with a "Just found it, dear" to his "Where on Earth . . . .?" after the Royalist captives had been carefully ransomed for gaol escapes by her enterprising own entourage and officer friends. She never handed over any daughter of a family clamoring against her to Negro troops and then said, "Which oververbal family is next?" She even held a colonel's rank but only used it because she wore man's clothing afternoons. It was a brutal, violent, ruthless land, not a game of musical chairs. And so Manuela, penniless, improvident, died badly and in poverty, exiled by enemies and deserted by her friends. But why not deserted by her friends? They had all been poverty-stricken to a point quite incapable of helping her even though they wanted to-for she once had the power to make them solvent. And didn't use it. They were in poverty before they won but they did eventually control the land. After that why make it a bad habit? ________________ And so we see two pathetic, truly dear, but tinsel figures, both on a stage, both far removed from the reality of it all. And one can say, "But if they had not been such idealists they never would have fought so hard and freed half a continent," or "If she had stooped to such intrigue or he had been known for violent political actions they would never have had the strength and never would have been loved." All very idealistic itself. They died "in the ditch" unloved, hated and despised, two decent brave people, almost too good for this world. A true hero, a true heroine. But on a stage and not in life. Impractical and improvident and with no faintest gift either one to use the power they could assemble. This story of Bolivar and Manuela is a tragedy of the most piteous kind. They fought a hidden enemy, the Church; they were killed by their friends. But don't overlook how impractical it is not to give your friends power enough when you have it to give. You can always give some of it to another if the first one collapses through inability. And one can always be brought down like a hare at a hunt who seeks to use the delegated power to kill you- if you have the other friends. Life is not a stage for posturing and "Look at me!" "Look at me." "Look at me." If one is to lead a life of command or a life near to command one must handle it as life. Life bleeds. It suffers. It hungers. And it has to have the right to shoot its enemies until such time as comes a golden age.